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Remembering Robin Williams and pondering Suicide – Why did he do it? Is there any hope in this world?

Robin WilliamsWith the death of the comedian and actor Robin Williams, and his apparent suicide the world looks on and wonders why, what would cause this, why would he be depressed, how could someone like him do this, etc.? I cannot speak for Robin Williams or anyone else for that matter, of which they all have their own answers. But what I can say is that this is sad thing for anyone to do to themselves, and for family and friends to have to experience the loss.

Suicide, just the word itself says so much. Thinking about Robin Williams, I can remember the night my father committed suicide to this day. On a Tuesday night, in July 17th, 2001, at 10:15pm, while speaking with my former step-mother on the phone, I hear a gun shot go off, and it was the end of my father’s life. He shot himself just outside of their home.

My dad had his ups and downs in life, and it seemed like he was doing good prior to his death, and that seems to be a common thing among those whom have taken their own lives. My father taking his life still to this day does not make any sense to me. Words cannot describe the pain, confusion, sadness, and loss I have had over the past 13 years.   My dad was a great friend and father to me, and I loved him.

In many ways Robin Williams death reminded me of my dad, because they both had a great sense of humor and were full of life, and enjoyed making people happy.   Yet in the end, they had a void in their lives when it was not visible to others. It is very sad that they were not able to carry on, to reach out, and live.  My condolences go out to Robin Williams family and friends. My prayer that his death being a sad thing and in the public with him being a well known actor and comedian, that this will bring to light ways to help those who are alone and depressed.

You can be a famous actor, comedian, rock star, rich, poor, not known, living day to day, an outcast, etc., and be alone and depressed inside. We all need true peace and comfort in this world, and we will be let down in life by people. True peace in life comes from knowing and living for the Maker of all things, and trusting in Him during the good times and the hard times.

17 My soul has been rejected from peace; I have forgotten happiness.   18 So I say, “My strength has perished, And so has my hope from the LORD.”   19 Remember my affliction and my wandering, the wormwood and bitterness.   20 Surely my soul remembers And is bowed down within me.   21 This I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope.   22 The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail.   23 They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.   24 “The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I have hope in Him.”   25 The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the person who seeks Him. (Lamentations 3)

7 So Jesus said to them again, “Truly, truly, I say to you, I am the door of the sheep.   8 “All who came before Me are thieves and robbers, but the sheep did not hear them. 9 “I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture.   10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.   11 “I am the good shepherd; the good shepherd lays down His life for the sheep.   12 “He who is a hired hand, and not a shepherd, who is not the owner of the sheep, sees the wolf coming, and leaves the sheep and flees, and the wolf snatches them and scatters them.   13 “He flees because he is a hired hand and is not concerned about the sheep.   14 “I am the good shepherd, and I know My own and My own know Me,   15 even as the Father knows Me and I know the Father; and I lay down My life for the sheep.   16 “I have other sheep, which are not of this fold; I must bring them also, and they will hear My voice; and they will become one flock with one shepherd.   17 “For this reason the Father loves Me, because I lay down My life so that I may take it again.   18 “No one has taken it away from Me, but I lay it down on My own initiative. I have authority to lay it down, and I have authority to take it up again. This commandment I received from My Father.” (John 10)

6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.   7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.   8 Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.   9 The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.   10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at last you have revived your concern for me; indeed, you were concerned before, but you lacked opportunity.   11 Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am.   12 I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need.   13 I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4)


2 thoughts on “Remembering Robin Williams and pondering Suicide – Why did he do it? Is there any hope in this world?

  1. As a Christian and a sufferer of bipolar depression, it is really hard to explain the process. You do become more suicidal after you have hit bottom and are on your way back up…I cannot explain it because I am not sure there is a satisfying explanation. A lot of it is brain chemistry…knowing that is helpful, but it is still a struggle to get through while you are in the middle of it. You have to know your weaknesses and struggle with the hand you have been dealt. There have been 4 suicides in the last three generations of my family and many more attempts. You have to know yourself, know your weaknesses and work hard to keep the darkness at bay. The drugs help…but they tend to numb one to more than just the negative aspects of mental illness but also to the joyous aspects of human life. They have gotten better in my 60 years. Compared to what I was on in the 70s and now…. night and day…but the drugs still have negatives. But I stay on them. I have prayed for deliverance but as of yet, not healed. I guess I figure this is my cross to bear in this life. But I am more willing to endure a little numbness … I have sat on the back porch with a loaded gun a few times in my life…and it was a close thing.
    Trust me when I say that even when there is sometimes no reason for the despair, it does not change the truth that you feel it. … You can fight it and I have never gone through with a attempt….but I am not willing to risk it anymore. Just as a person adicted to drugs or ponography the first step is to stay away from the source of the temptation, in mental illness you try and stay away from those moments of despair with whatever gets you through to the other side.
    What would be helpful is there was not such a stigma with the disease. I would like to come out of the closet and share this with my brothers and sisters in Christ….but that is not a good idea. It has come back to bite me in the past. The most you can hope for is to find a fellow traveler or two along the same road and set up a support system for each other. Somebody to call when the darkness comes.

    Posted by Stephen | August 20, 2014, 9:07 AM
  2. Stephen,

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts, I know that is not easy sharing these kinds of thoughts, I do hope what you shared helps others whom may read.

    Posted by Kelly Powers | September 23, 2014, 10:59 AM

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